1 I wake up, slowly at first I open my eyes and breathe heavily for I'm awake, alive I think, despite my attempt to end it all We can try and pretend to feel something different, some distrust some complicated fear brought on by everything negative you hold close for its easier to stay beyond grounded Take my hand and hold it tightly for joy is the sunshine basking high above our heads floating in the sky, in my mind all that we are isn't what we seem to be Beautiful time spent alone had me remembering I can do this. 2 I miss the smell of the rain fall cleansing my soul deeply rooted is the memories we've created Yet here I lay wet naked waiting for you I listen to my heart beat hoping you tear it apart Quietly I try to sleep at night but I lay awake thinking my god how is this all mine ? 3 I paint my life in black a wonderful memory of my past misfortunes I chase my dreams and turn them black fo...