A Blue Bouquet

There's a song I have on my Ipod that brings me back to say, Paris circa two thousand and three. That was the time when we pushed the boundaries and the inner questions slowly started to revel themselves, but this isn't about that. When the inevitable is in sight and your experiencing your first real love experience, can you quickly forgot all that was before, and remember the person you once where ? * The breakdown of self is a true testament to a love we as people thrive on, that's a somewhat fact, but when we breakdown to such a point of misery, that when we look in the mirror we see no flaws, only clouded emotions brought on by a slight bitter flare, have we gone to far ? Its been going around the past year or so, a true self deprecating emotion only brought on by the other half's, yet while we feel trapped, can we take a stand and remember what we once seen in amongst the partial shit storm ...

I haven't paid enough attention to a lot of things lately. Few know the truth, some ignore it with the passing moments, while others tried but cant handle the burn. Its funny, when your stuck in tunnel vision you really do forget all that was before, all that, wither it be raw energy, raw emotions or the sound of laughter by those loved ones, its hard to accept the facts sometimes. I once dedicated this blog to someone, in many respects it was that that started this whole thing, but now after a few years, a few close friends and many turbulent experiences its grown into something much more meaningful, more fulfilling and something I cant handle at times, its me, its what I do and who I am. Its funny when I look back at it, but now while I plan to expand this its down to those close to me and well, life, that this is somewhat dedicated too now. * Ambition is the desire for personal achievement, yes that's...