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Raw Ambition.

I haven't paid enough attention to a lot of things lately.
Few know the truth, some ignore it with the passing moments, while others tried but cant handle the burn.
Its funny, when your stuck in tunnel vision you really do forget all that was before, all that, wither it be raw energy, raw emotions or the sound of laughter by those loved ones, its hard to accept the facts sometimes.

I once dedicated this blog to someone, in many respects it was that that started this whole thing, but now after a few years, a few close friends and many turbulent experiences its grown into something much more meaningful, more fulfilling and something I cant handle at times, its me, its what I do and who I am.
Its funny when I look back at it, but now while I plan to expand this its down to those close to me and well, life, that this is somewhat dedicated too now.

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Ambition is the desire for personal achievement, yes that's a fact. But when you lack ambition or even more so reached your short term goal can you redirect all that raw positive energy and factor it into something more worth while?
Lately I've been slowly crumbling with my lack of ambition.

Does anyone ever know what they want in there mid twenties?
Can we fully accept the fact this is it, this daily routine is what we call life and with that thought, hold it, think not about tomorrow but next year, or the year after, when its all done and dusted are you the same?
A good friend of mine knows what she wants, well for the time being, shes the only one I can fully put my hand up and say is doing something worth while, its that desire that has me pushing the boundaries of my own life and perhaps with some luck, achieving my mid twenties ambition - my new found desire if you will of a life based around what I want to do as apposed to what I should be doing.

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I've been pushing my mind and my energy toward a goal of epic proportions, I don't know what this year holds but as I said to myself when the clocks turned twelve "this year is the year your going to push yourself more", be it a testament to my desire that its the 10th of January and the emails have been sent.

Are you feeling the burn of your mid twenties or racing to the departing gates?


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