A Blue Bouquet

They say these are the best years of our lives, when we grow into the person we will slightly become, our morals will be tested in the ever changing world and we will strive only by social conformity to be something were not, unless we find a way to really understand ourselves and the actions we place upon our lives. Our friendships will be tested as time goes on, our circles will change dramatically we will find the person looking back at us in the mirror will be nothing like what we thought, yes these most certainly  are the best years of our lives. I have friends who are happily married, friends who are engaged, friends with mortgages and friends who rent, friends who are loosing their jobs and friends who love their jobs, friends who are so close who understand my mind state and then friends who are psychopaths who don't. Its funny when we look at the circles we are accompanied to ...

It happens to everyone at some point, even those people who are so positive, who one may think that their sky isn't filled with grey clouds, but it is and it does most certainly happen, some people like to call it a break down or a mid-life crisis but I prefer to think of it as, a pure dissolution of self existence. Only manageable by self expression and positive thinking, weighting in the highs and lows of said self, managed by friends and family alike, only in the hope that one does pull through. * I remember nothing seemed clear or just, simple daily tasks seemed undeserving of my time and my full attention. The people close to me slowly started to speak ever slow quietly for they knew something was up, they backed off because I was shutting myself off with an unemotional pass of remembrance. Its funny but its true, I would stay in bed all day, barely leave the house for anything other then my job and even at tha...