A Blue Bouquet

Ive jumped. Ive jumped into the water, the ice cold water head first. It was a shock to my system at first all the familiar surroundings in which is hid in, lost myself in are gone. The shock of the water took my breathe away, it hurt like hell and there's parts I wish I didn't do but that's the thing about jumping, the unexpected twist is its just what you needed to wake yourself up. To drag yourself out of the familiar and into something new. The familiar surroundings in which I hid in are gone, the tree's of past happiness are gone and replaced by a wide ocean filled with many island. Islands in which I can rediscover myself in, reconnect with myself and find my own path. There's three steps discover, connect and achieve. In the world I'm in these steps seem huge and almost impossible but I've jumped and I cant take that back. I cant get back to the forest and I'm happy I cant, I'm sick of the forest its killed me being there. All the...

Without permission he left. He wasn't happy, I couldn't make him happy despite my best effort's. So he left me, ripped out my heart and made me question my life, love for him and all the memories I hold dear. People come into your life. Some stay for good and some only stay a short while. Friends we see from time to time and friends we see all the time, those friends we see from time to time we miss them, w e greatly miss them and sometime wish we could have a day with them. A day to refresh our memories, a day to catch up, chat and gossip. We live in hope for those day's and if were really lucky those friends are only a plane ride away. But what about those people who come into our life's and fill it with endless joy, love and laughter, always promising to be by our sides whispering there love for us before we end one day and welcome another. Would we want to catch up with them for the day ? I've often those about this, a day as friends. A day t...

Today the sun was shining. I wore my sunglasses and had a smile on my face. I left my house whistling a happy tune for I was going to see my friends  and have a good fun day out. While on the bus, I got to thinking about the distortions of love. The beginnings, the middles and the ending's. I didn't think I would catch you, but I did. We stood still. Glancing at each other for a moment thinking is it him. A stare followed by a smile. I'm happy you came over, I'm happy we talked a nd I'm truly happy we can be friends. You see a ghost is a reminder of a life you once had, a life you once loved to be in but sadly if you have a ghost that life is gone. The dream is destroyed and will never be the same, the dream may come back and we may live in hope that it does but it wont be the same and chances are neither will you. A dream of two made by one. One who was consumed, consumed by us and the traditions and values, rules and regulations of relationships...