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Another lost soul.

Its happened so fast yet we knew it was coming, bitter lie's and resentment were starting to sting like wasp's, the fight's were fueled with jealously and rage, yet the love was strong, strong enough to make its own mind up.

It reminds me of Spring, those afternoon's where the sun would sit low in a bask of colour's and it would still be cold enough to cuddle up in a blanket, sipping tea on the porch while having a cigarette after a meal. 
The air still with its sting from the cold yet smelling so fresh and pure, an almost new awaking for those who want to push the boundaries and change there outlook on there somewhat livable life's. 

If truth be told I don't know how we got there. 
Its quite sad how we ignore each other, simple message's of good wishes go with a blank stare and a reply that's worth not replying for. 
I always hoped after all this we would be friend's but I guess it's going to take more time. 

*
Spring has arrived early in some ways.
Thank's to the advice I've changed my outlook already, those star's above our head's could tell some stories but we choose not to prey on it, only keep it close for we know how much it mean's. 
Its funny how know I understand all that goes on in the real world and what it means to be living in it, but I didn't think my lesson plan would involve this hard lesson, but I guess that's how it is sometimes. 

Paris put my mind at ease and thought me were to go and to who. 
Another trip seems needed as the line's slowly start to shimmer and blur, question's will arise and the truth will be sliced in half with a red brush, can this survive ? 
Question's is all we have and no time to understand.
Hello -365.


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