A Blue Bouquet

The smoke leaves my lungs and fogs my room just like my mind in a grey cloud, for all I'm doing is making the air heavy, making the air as heavy as I can for I bathe in grey clouds, the slight glimmer of darkness is all I need to elope to the Damian only one of you know. * We talked about this, I couldn't do it and I wouldn't dare shatter the future were all craving. They say it happens more so by those victimised, yet I can tell you it takes a lot to bring us down or more importantly me. It's crumbled at my feet before, all I had was the clothes on my back and a confused expression that won't leave my slender face. * There comes a time when we, as adults make a stand and admit our mistakes, he couldn't and he chose the darkest of springs in which to drown his problems. Yes I'm blood, and statics are somewhat right otherwise the foundation they stand on is lies, but my battles are on going. It's an every day challenge to get out of bed and r...

It can happen at any time, more then ever it's spontaneous and occurs totally out of the blue, but when it does happen you loose everything. Everything you've been working on and everything you've built can come crumbling down. Sooner or later it will happen to you, but for different reasons and once again, totally out of the blue. * Alone you sit, forcing a smile on your face wishing everyone would go away and leave you alone. The pace you feel inside yourself is nothing compared to the noise. Those black walls screaming misery aren't they oh so welcoming, upon your fragile heart sits basking in the grey clouds, so many, yet so few with the escaping lining you really crave. * The recaptured light of home is what holds us together, it's what we know and ultimately who we are. Dance away those blues with me, laugh at those old days spent in the country side, sitting on the green drinking in the summer sun and look forward to the endless years that we know...

There comes a time when we have to take control, move away from the past and embrace the present, for all it's worth it's our only chance sometimes. * It's been too long since the comfortable sensation was ticking away in my mind, but that's only brought on by the changing dynamics around me. What was once a life made by those around me is now a life unearthed by sheer will power and the determination to change that of the past, to disassemble a life as possible. * I can't understand why I do it sometimes, still to this day I think back, look back even at those old photos of love and question the ash and the smell of sut that now covers those once precious photos. I remember it all like a dream, memories are now shaken by the truth they stand on for my optimistic memory remembers everything in a lighter mood. * A beautiful stranger is what you are, now while the smoke settles I can see, I'm dancing alone at my therapists, aged 6. Take care in tho...

It's true what they say, it's like loosing a member of your family and even harder at times. The first person who outside of your family you share your whole life with and more, it's hard to adjust to a sudden death but when they still live in a world your no longer welcome in, death sounds promising. * It happens to all of us at one time or another, a simple break up. I recall everything from all my break ups yet somehow this longing for something more powerful and fulfilling still has me in its grips. Its not like before, my heart is settled in the comforts of home, the comforts I've found in my solitude and I'm happy for the most part. I love everything I've built since, everything I've gained and everything I've lost, just like before there's another I try to admire still, yet that love no longer presides inside my heart too. * I remember the day well, I took the tram to Gleneg, it was a beautiful day with the temperature reaching ...