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Recap pt1.

The calm before the storm is always so intriguing, haunting, illusional and as stated quite calm, but what happens when the storm has passed and we as people slowly start to return to normal is what has me in its grasp.

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Gone are the days of endless E's and nights out, not saving a penny for a rainy day and not saving at all, living in a bubble so consumed with an illusion of the dream, yet so far off anything anyone would have wanted for me, the times around us have changed and quite like the people in it.

I only remember the good of the past which is my downfall in the present, the simple fact that I'm not a teenager anymore sitting waiting on a text scares me, I'm a adult now and this is real life.
while I slept last night wrapped in your arms it didn't phase me, I didn't think about it but when we spoke of the labels that come with the territory I slowly began to sink.

My mind can be as fickle as my heart right now, simple changes that would structure something more so only make me question the path I'm on, the distance between us now is incomprehensible compared to before the storm, even after too, the shock I got was the fact your no longer around, the promise is long gone and so are my feelings for you.

Yet, while I've built myself back up to such a point and completely found myself in such a good light I can't help but let this happen, the fact you support me in every aspect is fantastic, the fact you understand the road I'm going down and respect it is fantastic, I guess sometimes I'm too hard on myself.

I'm floating down this stream of unknowing passion and I guess I should let the water carry me to where I belong.

There's always a light at the end of the tunnel dear friend, it make take weeks, months even years to find it but never stop looking and always remember the person you were yesterday for he will shape you tomorrow.

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