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Attainable Aspirations.

Attainable aspirations are only achievable when your stood perfectly still and living in the moment, you have to be clearly focused at one particular outcome and the timing has to be perfect. Ironically everything suddenly falls silent in your head, the demons that wreak havoc in your mind are banished without a thought, second chances are non existent and the surprise you get is the one thing that scares you the most.

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I once wrote about a summers day perched upon some white picket fences, enjoying an ice cream and feeling the cool air brush through my hair, feeling the embrace of another and a slight pull on love. Now a good few years later I've settled my mind back on the ground and have opened up to the possibility of it, yet for who it is a mystery to me but when you feel a connection so strong, sometimes it's better to wear it on our your sleeve, embrace the change and follow your gut instinct, for who better but you to change the way you feel.

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It still hasn't set in, hasn't even touched the surface of what I'm doing even while I look up apartments, scour banks that will accept non nationals, plan my trips and wait for the catch to settle in my head, it's almost as numb as Decembers blues yet I know it's now or never.

I asked my good friend recently how we got here, how have we all grown up and accepted the life we lead daily. What happened to those years when we worked for pocket money, didn't have bills to pay or rent to give, we didn't understand the value of anything, but now as we've all grown up and faced with the fact that, life has creeped up on all of us and suddenly shaken the very foundation we stand on, I guess to what end are we challenging back and embracing it.

Life will only give you so many lemons until its too bitter to drink, your hopes and dreams of once upon a time are fragmented and gone, you catch yourself nearer to thirty and wonder why.

I cant help but wonder, can you attain all your hopes and dreams if your mind is settled in the narrowness of your reality, and to what end do you try to uplift the sights you see, to explore the world around you ?

when the world is calling with ample opportunities do you answer or stay the same ?

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