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Changing dynamics.

When we think back to yester years, remembering those baby faced pre adults we once were, living in a bubble of pure hype & excitement, experiencing life as it happened and never looking back for our future seemed so close; well, now granted it's been six years, I'm well into my mid-twenties and when I look back on life I honestly can't help but wonder; how did we manage it all? 

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I've been happy, sad, excited and nervous even envious at times, not to mention remorseful and to a certain extent embarrassed of how things have shaped my brittle world. I look back to a time when life seemed so clear, so understanding & be it a positive or a  negative; I knew which was which + how to achieve the positive even in a negative situation but now as I approach the midst of (mid twenty soul searching) questions I simply can't look back for the two people seem entirely disconnected. 

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Ask yourself, can I put my arm in the air and say I've  changed for the better? Be it a continuous growth of maturity brought on by age and not by social structure based around the somewhat morals of those close? 
I read a post recently of how your friendships change, the dynamic force behind each changed by our wants and needs not to mention the fact that, as we grow up we slowly but surely develop our self awareness and an understanding to cater to each and for some lucky few an understanding of where some people fit; be it no longer or likewise. 

I arranged to meet some good friends this evening and the topic came up and while I looked around I truly seen the dynamics I've chosen, the few close to me I trust, the ones who's understanding is based on the same morals, views on life and strength like my own. 

When I look back on 2011 I see two very different people, two radically changed people, for the better. 
As we grow our friends become smaller, our views and understanding values stay true, the perception we give out is us, like it or lump it!  Now while the two seem very disconnected I can honestly put my hand up and say I'm truly happy for the change that's occurred, the question I guess I'm after is, if you look back are you disconnected from your past in a vivid change or can you put your hand up and truly understand the direction your life has taken and respect the person you've become? 

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Life takes hold and people change but if you've no solid foundation your in danger, for fickle trust becomes your future. 

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