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Recap Pt 2. (Honest).

Sometimes I think what's important in life. I question the possibilities we as people thrive upon, the ideal values we should have +, I suppose this is trivial but I question how to have fulfilment + what that means + how to get it. As we change daily our wants + needs change, but my question to you is, do you have a timer set for fulfilment? + if that desire changes how do you react or are you quick enough to bring it home, embrace it + go with it? 

(I question a lot, as I'm sure most of you know by now,  but I'm as much mysterious as I am honest, my questions come from a broken home + a confused soul as I've no idea what I'm doing half of the time). 

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Perhaps it's the fact that Christmas is upon us + with that a new year; more so a new you as they say + I've been slowly pondering the idea of myself throughout the years over my mind lately + what it means to be happy, ambitious + open to love, which leads me to the question of fulfilment in my life. 
Yes I can say I've accomplished an ambition, a serious of events which has lead to this position, even this chance but on a personal level I find it hard to stand tall amongst my peers as (to my doubtful mind) it doesn't add up; when ambition equals results why does it feel we chase ourselves all over again on a personal level? 

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I look in the mirror every single day + see myself split into characters, the honest one +  the shy loving friend, the cold blunt Damian who always shields himself + the happy for the moment, carefree + intoxicating one, each very different yet each strong characters. If truth be told my secretes are hard to tell despite the confusion given all the faces, even few seem to deal daily I wouldn't tell a soul. 

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Recap part two was always going to be more personal, another level to this great mass of powerless hopeful openness I've developed over the years. Yet, while I cap it I can't help but think back to all that was before, the personal level I've developed within myself, the contentment I've noticed I've longed for + the happiness I've lost.  

I've mentioned before fulfilment, what it means to each of us to chase it, what it does to your mind body + soul to achieve it, yet while I hope for better things to come in the new year I can only hope that you do the same, chasing fulfilment or another repetitive year? (ask yourself) 

When you sit back, look inside + think, your mind opens up to what it is your soul is saying, chase the questions + embrace the change for another year is upon us. 

(The important thing to remember is that we have control of our life, some may say differently and conform to the standards set before them (given peers, job security, parents) but when you activity seek out what it is you long for + question it, you slowly develop another level of self awareness, self indulgence for thought + a desire to change resulting in a nourishing future + full of adventure....don't let that go to anyone but you).

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