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You & I.

27-11-15
Basking thoughts in my mind 
I think of only you 
Yet is this place safe for me ?
Safe for you in my arms, you cry. 
For you know this is love 

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24-12-15
Suddenly it's real, but is it ?
I'm very unsure of my feelings at the moment, I'm tricking myself into a particular feeling that, I know is there, but is it as big as my anxious mind makes it out to be ?
For once, I'm very unsure of myself. 

I do love him, so much, and I wish that sometimes it could be different but that wouldn't be us then, it would be something else and I don't want that. 

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27-12-15
My emotions were racing for I understood I'm madly in love. 
All I wanted was him beside me, his smell to breathe in closely, his eyes so I could get lost into, his mouth & the warmth of his breath & his kiss to keep me sane, yet now a few days later I'm scared to go home, not because of him but because of me & the power I feel I've lost. 
He has me madly in love, yet that's my weakness, given all the strength I have that's the one thing to make me crumble, the truth of it is that I'm terrified of him leaving. 

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Trust it's the fundamental basic foundation for any type of relationship, it can set the bar high enough to fully believe in true love and it can crumble an individual too pieces, shattering everything that, that said person held dear - 
Its funny, I thought I found my prince, my white or more correctly Italian dark knight but what I get is actually me, falling to pieces, completely shattered with questions starting from A and ending in Z. 
Have I done this to myself somehow ? 

My heads spinning with such force it's bouncing off the pavement. 

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I don't want to be alone, I don't want to wake up alone, I want to share my life with someone, I've worked too hard on myself to allow myself the self inflicted misery I once caused - but you need to promise me this love is real, you need to show me and prove it to me, this isn't until something better, this is forever. 

Is this all that you need ? 
Can you see it, you and me, forever ? 




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