Dublin, cold, dark and slightly depressive or is that just me?
Now that the dust has settled I finally see what my life has become, what I've gained and what I've sadly lost.
See, its kinda of funny the way we all have friends who we don't talk to that often, family members we wont see from one end of the year to the other and people who we might love dearly but don't get the opportunity to see that often, but we know in our hearts that they have nothing but good wishes for us.
Its comforting to know that.
Its comforting to know that there are people who care about us.
But when we don't know who cares or if they care, it can be deathly.
Its a withering pain, it takes hold and slowly but surly the hold kills.
Take a plant for example without sunshine and water, it slowly dies, from the inside out.
That's whats its like.
I wish him nothing but the best I really do.
I have noting but respect for his decision and I understand it now.
Now that I can see, now that the dust has settled I can once again breathe on my own.
There's been too many bad days lately, my positive thinking and wishing for the best has worn off.
I couldn't do it, I needed medical intervention.
So this morning I took a Xanax.
Well I must say, it was quite brilliant, I needed a day or pure simple bliss.
I was calm cool and collective far be it from the reality of things.
I remember leaving my house this morning whistling a happy tune, not pondering the depts of my mind as I would do every morning, not worrying that I was 15minutes behind the world, nothing, not a worry in my little mind.
It was quite amazing not to think today.
Not to think about anything that didn't need thinking about.
Now that the dust has settled I finally see what my life has become, what I've gained and what I've sadly lost.
See, its kinda of funny the way we all have friends who we don't talk to that often, family members we wont see from one end of the year to the other and people who we might love dearly but don't get the opportunity to see that often, but we know in our hearts that they have nothing but good wishes for us.
Its comforting to know that.
Its comforting to know that there are people who care about us.
But when we don't know who cares or if they care, it can be deathly.
Its a withering pain, it takes hold and slowly but surly the hold kills.
Take a plant for example without sunshine and water, it slowly dies, from the inside out.
That's whats its like.
I wish him nothing but the best I really do.
I have noting but respect for his decision and I understand it now.
Now that I can see, now that the dust has settled I can once again breathe on my own.
There's been too many bad days lately, my positive thinking and wishing for the best has worn off.
I couldn't do it, I needed medical intervention.
So this morning I took a Xanax.
Well I must say, it was quite brilliant, I needed a day or pure simple bliss.
I was calm cool and collective far be it from the reality of things.
I remember leaving my house this morning whistling a happy tune, not pondering the depts of my mind as I would do every morning, not worrying that I was 15minutes behind the world, nothing, not a worry in my little mind.
It was quite amazing not to think today.
Not to think about anything that didn't need thinking about.
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