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Numbing the mind.

We all have those moments, us battered souls more so then others.
Joyous occasions often bring about the dark side of the cloud, it forms itself in the shape of our anxiety or our bouts of depression or for some it's the universe dragging up the shadows of a past figure you simply can't escape from.

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A bitter exchange made me rethink my actions on the life I'm having and made me rethink the motions in which I set this life a sail.
My water once choppy and dark now a clear blue marine in which this artful souls see his life, yet I can't help but let myself really go and enjoy the crystal clear marine or the clear blue skies, could it be that I'm not ready to truly let go of the past and not question the actions of which my present is formed?

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Looking at it now after a good nights sleep I can see the fractures the hold everything together, doubt has always been my achilles heel despite my strength it always wins over the body, but it's time to slowly reinforce what I've learnt the past two years.

The memories of the sandy beach have always kept my mind at ease for the music was turned off and for once I let my mind rest and I could think freely and quite simply about the life I'm leading.
It took me a long time to understand the roads in which we take our life down, but I've found it quite tranquil of late to simply turn off, sit back and let the journey that is life take you down a road of unforgettable experiences.

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