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Tulips and songs.

I recently purchased an ablum, its a very good album and I thought I would cry but I didn't.
It felt good not to cry along, but sing and understand where I was and were I'm going.

Track 3;
Is what I realised what was going on in my relationship after it ended.
Looking back its kinda funny, I never seen the signs, the signs that its not you and its not me, we need our time and we need to think about us as individuals and we are.
We don't talk, we don't write or email.
But I know in time we will be friends, I'm finally sitting at my table with a different outlook on life with my glass half full and it feels good.

Track 7;
Makes me angry because its what I done.
I gave all my power for you, all my power for us, and I got consumed by it.
We both did and it wasn't good for us, it made us weak and made us over think and question things.
But in the end we left that place, sadly not together but as individuals going down our own roads.
I crumbled and broke down, I cried every night and didn't eat for days but I've learnt and I'm moving forward.
I have a new road, a new day to live and I've got my power back, as I've said before my hands were open, both hands open ready for the taken.

Track 11;
Brings me hope, hope for the future and for us.
See in this life things happen in a second, people change, born and die in a second.
Apart of us dies in a second but is replaced.
A relationship flies by, time may stand still on those lovely summer days sitting in the tall grass but time flies when you look back on it.
Those summer days will never be the same, that place will never be the same and we will never be the same.

Its been 14weeks, 3 days and ten and a half hours but I'm okay.
I'm planing my holidays, my night's out and I'm planing dates, see I'm okay now and I hope you are too.
I wish nothing but the best for you, I really do and I've said it all before.
Moving on is okay and I think we forget were allowed to move on, it may take time but in time we will get there, we have hope and hope makes us move forward, toward happy days that we are planning and new memories with new people and new faces and new experiences, see in this life things happen in a second, people change born and die in a second.


Today while on the bus, I seen something so lovely it also excites me.
Tulips, lovely tulips shooting out of the group in there hundreds.
All there colours bring me hope, hope for the summer and the bbq's and sessions.
Hope for friendship, summer holidays and hope for change.
Spring is here at last, the snow will not fall again for many moon's and we are free.
Free to see our self's once again without masking it.
My hill top is brighter, the grass is slowly turning a bright healthy green and I'm happy.
I can smell the fresh air from up here in my turret and its nice, its nice to see some light shine over the land and I hope it stays that way.

Spring, a new season and a new me.
For once in a long time I can say I'm happy.

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