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Like water.

Everyday we change some for the good and some for the bad.
We as people change without even realizing it, we grow and somewhat evolve into a deeper sense of self.

Change made me push for more in my life, the job I wanted I got, a real start at something amazing.
The end of a relationship wasn't needed but I'm happier for it and if truth be told, I wouldn't have been doing or going to what and where I am now.

It's been 9 months since I've had sex and I'm happy about that.
I didn't want to go back to my old ways and sleep around, it wouldn't have done me any good it only would have made things a lot worse and now while I look towards the one I like I'm happy I've waited, if not from him but for someone else, because I know now that I like someone and that feeling of giddy playfulness and excitement is purely amazing, but who knows what will happen.
I'm happy being single but who knows what changes are around the corner.

I've seen it with fiends our new years resolution is quite literary going to plan.
It's year of the mots, year of being a junkie, year of meeting someone we haven't met before and the year of ourselves.
Crazy and silly things but things were all standing to.

As time goes on I can see the changing dynamic in our circle, we've become closer to more and less so to few but the few will always be there regardless of the time.
My best friend I love and I know nothing can or will pull us apart.

But with each changing dynamic comes a struggle to stay put in the same spot we've been in for years.
It's time to accept our age, accept ourselves for who we are and go for what makes up happy.

Change is all around us and regardless of how difficult it is or how far the light may be from our sight we have to roll with the punches and accept it for what it is; life.

Like water I can attack anything that comes my way, changing to adapt and in the hope of changing for the somewhat better.

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