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Q&A with my shattered mind.

Q; What could be better then sunshine and the sweet smell of hector passing through the air as you lay with friends?

A; The shattered dreams I had of this summer, the trips I planed and the life I almost had; nestled in the high grass shadowed by love us lovers lay, looking at clouds and picturing the beauty around us.
The shadow of pain and heart ace follows in his every foot step, follows in his daily routine and his actions, only when they meet does it become reality and a chance encounter of that kind I can't bear.

Q; Does the ghost of past failure haunt your life still?

A; Yes but when your there it doesn't, you have the power to stop this haunting feeling this overwhelming feeling of dread.

Q; Are you saying I'm strong?

A; Your laugh is powerful and consumes the air around people, your happiness beings joy to those close as they know the sorrow that haunts me.
Physically your not strong, your not an ideal man of the world but a great deal of a feminine mind, so in that sense yes you are strong.

Q; What will become of you now so, will you ever love again?

A; That I do not know, I have dreams of home, dreams of great friends only the land in which they lay I can't not return.
How can I love someone when I don't love myself ?...
The daily routine of life presides over my dreams for now and my shattered heart can't bear the idea.

Q; Your really that bad then ?

A; (I laugh) yes, people think I'm fine that I can handle it but the truth is I can't, it's a struggle everyday to get out of the bed and rejoice another day, why rejoice day after day when your not wanted ?
When the one thing you want in life doesn't want the same ?

I'm not  a coward, I wouldn't tie the rope like my fore father and I won't give up in this endless questionable life we lead, to do so is cheating, cheating the creator of this gift.

Q; Any other questions?

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