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Speed.

Life; its one big question mark with a thousand answers and many possibilities.

Ive lost a lot, gained a lot, had my up and downs, seen some fantastic sights and have met some fantastic people along the way but do we know where this will bring us?
I know now that I wont settle for anything other then a smile and that feeling of happiness.
Maybe that's why your not here now, maybe that's why you set me free

A key opens doors in which we hide ourselves in, hide the real us.

But behind those closed doors is a world full of windows and a world of possibilities and wonder.
Excitement turns knots in our stomach as when we turn the key, the sweet smell of adventure fills our noses are we breathe in the sweetness of summer air.

I'm only starting to notice the keys in my hand and the doors and windows around me.
Ive opened one lately and it has lead into a fun new world of friends, travel, festivals and parties, drunken nights out and massive amounts of tea drinking, smoke inhaling chitter chatting madness.

The other one was opened and another one soon enough.
A rediscovery of what I want out of my life, not what the rules dictate, the rules that bind so many people together.
In a few years when those joyess days come I'll always think back to the doors of life and smile, knowing I've opened as many as I could regardless of the consequences I know I'l be happy.

If we go down our road fast enough, without the sight of past figures we forget.
The lines made of the body become blurred and only a blank outline remains.
Let the wind blow your hair back, let it sting your cheeks and only look back at the views, the views of a ocean so wide and blue, the views of the green hills in which the sheep are grazing, take it all in and don't stop until the lines of reality are harrowed and blurred.

Reality can swing its hard fists at any moment and it did.
A chance encounter with your brother which was actually nice.
I tried to ask, but I couldn't bring myself too.
If I ask your real, the pain is real and the motions of a life without you come back.
So forgive me for going at this speed, cycling down my road with only sunshine on top of me and not a dark cloud in sight, keys in my pocket and an endless adventure in which to unlock.

"A lonely bird rests gently,
 this is harder then I thought".

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